Today was not an exceptional day. We didn't get to sleep in, tantrums were thrown, and tears were shed. We only set foot outside in the afternoon for an hour-long excursion to 99 Ranch Market. But there was something about today that makes me want to freeze it, wrap it up and tuck it away, keep it under my pillow.
Both girls at lunchtime, enjoying their food.
Jessie, feet up on the table, munching on a pork rib bone. Grease all over, could not be any happier. Becca, spaghetti sauce on her cheeks, her nose, her pants, her sweater, her chair, the floor all around her. Also happy as can be.
Both girls, asleep on the couches in the living room. For five minutes, granted, but oh, the loveliness of those five minutes.
Then Jessie awake, waiting impatiently for me to crack and feed her sunflower seeds, insistently stuffing a fistful of already-cracked, empty shells in my mouth. Her offering me both cheeks, one at a time, to kiss. Scooching into my lap, backwards, as always. I think hard, trying to find a memory like this with Rebecca, but I can't. Becca has never been the cuddly, snuggly type. She's very affectionate, tactile and loving, but more of a smash-into-you and bite-your-shoulder fierce kind of love, squirmy and rough. Still, there must have been times like this, there must have been.
Out in the cold, trip to the market. The closest parking space possible, can't believe our luck. Samples, everywhere we turn. Korean pears, fish balls, tofu, fried onion pancakes, sweet rice. A buffet for the girls, how can they possibly want dinner after all that? Home, unloading the car, preparing hot pot with my husband, together. Choreographed, no one getting in anyone else's way, ready to eat in no time flat.
Towards the end of the meal, the girls laughing, screeching together, breaking open a bag of beans all over the living room floor. Silliness. Picking it all up, together, the three of us, Daddy taking pictures.
What a day. Of normalcy. Of everyday. Of kid-ness. I see so much of myself in Rebecca, not all of it good, but it wouldn't surprise me to know that she felt the same as I did about today. Something special, even though it was so plain and ordinary. She was in bed by 9:30, but didn't let herself fall asleep until well after 11. I'll show you tomorrow what the beans were for. But please, please don't let me forget about today. I always want to remember today.